Okay so today I just blew off an internship at a really great law firm.Let’s back up here, for those of you who haven’t read or skipped the About Me page. I’ve always been interested in photography ever since I was a child. I used to take tons of pictures all the time. I mean tons! .Yes I got some crazy pics: pretending to do various Tango dancing poses whilst wearing roller blades and long skirts! Standing tip toe on the grandfather armchair about to topple, punk poses in bandannas and the bubble gum tattoos we had to rely on! I would also come up with compositions of different materials and create a rock garden and click, click, click away.
Anyways fast forwarding to the present, after two years of law school I've decided to make photography my career and taken some time to fully develop this passion. I believe studying law is an asset to my photography and really to any career one chooses to pursue.
So yesterday I got an sms from one of my law teachers to ask me about whether I was still interested in doing the internship and I automatically said yes and the time and the date was all set up .However when I woke up today I had this dreadful feeling of gloom and doom (well melodramatic me) but anyways I really didn’t feel into it and couldn’t for the life of me imagine why I said yes.(Apart from the fact that I pursued all avenues to get a good internship at a law firm for like the entire student year!!! Slogging, pleading, sending applications cover letters and all)…
I decided I couldn't go through with it, I mean this was the summer vacation I needed to do so much! I wanted to explore different photography techniques, maybe do some photography meets or something (the tumbler is always spinning).
So here’s where having an identical twin is handy (for all the curious people always asking me what it‘s like having a twin).I woke up my sister and asked her if she would like to go instead of me as she’d also sent out the C.V to the same firm . She said no and promptly went back to sleep. LOL. I was panicking about what to do because it was too late to back out .She sleep walked into the living room and announced she would go for the interview! Yay! Day Saved and without Captain Planet.
I did wonder for a moment or two if I would regret this. Nah. It wasn't the right time for me, and it would have been a struggle .Since I don’t like doing things half halfheartedly there was no point. Plus it would be morally repugnant to take some one else's place just because I had the opportunity, when there were girls out there who really wanted to intern.
Believe and dream big. And like J * says “I‘d rather see you fail at something you love than succeed at something you hate“.